♥Monday, September 24

sigh. dunno whether i should get a job or not...
sch holidays is ending soon. ok, not that soon. around 2 to 3 weeks time.
then i know for sure i cant cope with work when sch starts. (unless the job is really super stress-free; which i really hope that is the case)
moreover, im the COORDINATOR for the fyp team; additional responsibility.
oh well~ at least the new member finds me friendly~ OH HOHO~
;x even before she know/see me, she already find me friendly.
maybe its because i asked her to "enjoy her taiwan trip"? LOL! and told her that we'll meet with her the following week because she cant make it this week.
and she's.... kinda funny. LOL!
she's like "Really really sorry about it. Will be back on 2nd oct. =("
haiyooo. she behave as if i'll eat her up like that.eating ppl up is like the last thing i will ever do.
ok, maybe i wont even do it at all.
oh well~ its always good to leave a good first impression. but in this case, she havent even met me ;x
oh wellllll. hurhur. its better she find me friendly now.
in weeks to come, she'll be suffering so much, she wont even know the word "friendly" anymore ;x
k, time for breakfast, anime and maybe shall continue my job hunt

Out Of Bounds:D
10:09 am

♥Saturday, September 22

ok.... so.......
im officially made the coordinator of the fyp team.
so, yesterday night wt asked me abt fyp stuff
so.... i went to the fyp portal and take a look....
SO! the first thing that caught my eye:

the "team co-ordinator". can u believe it? MY NAME IS THERE. BIG BIG SOMEMORE! OHMYGOODNESSSSSS..... something that i dread, really. sigh.
and..... why is the new member from pharmaceutical?! its gonna be..... quite tough ><
i really hope my team members are good this sem. ESPECIALLY MELVIN! and the new member, i dun hope much from her. but at least, i hope she cooperates well.

and so.... after i knew that im the coordinator, the next time to do, of course is the email.
can u believe it?! i actually sent an email.... (which i really really hate doing)
CAN U BELIEVE IT?! I ACTUALLY USED THAT KINDA TONE, THAT KINDA LANGUAGE IN THE EMAIL. OHMYGOODNESS.
the trauma..... is really..... too overwhelming i must say.
oh well, this upcoming sem... i can sense alot of change within me.
hopefully its for the better.
cant wait for the sem to be over x.x

Out Of Bounds:D
1:50 pm

♥Friday, September 21

hmmm.... reality's pretty harsh.
managed to escape reality by going to vietnam.
but coming back just.... sucks.
reality literally hits my face. hard. VERY HARD this time round.
just only yesterday, i found out one fyp member is going for intern. which means, there's only 4 members left.
wq, melvin, me and some random person whom i dun even know who it is.
well, i know wq can do work but always late.
melvin... games all day. talks alot in front of faci
and the random person.... I HOPE HE/SHE IS OF HELP TO THE TEAM.
and me.... since no one took the initiative to bring up the topic of "FYP", i took the initiative to start. and i had to email the faci.
so now, i've somehow became the leader.
which is a VERY VERY bad thing.
i mean, im just not cut out to be a leader in EVERY way.
im only taking the initiative because no one is and i feel its the right thing to do since other groups have already started and i feel that we cant start when sch holidays end. by then, it'll be too late.
AND IM REALLY SURPRISED NO ONE COME TO ME ASKING ABT FYP AT ALL.
i mean... yah, i asked melvin yesterday if he's fine if we start fyp meeting next week and he's like "yah, i was thinking of fyp meeting even when im on holidays"
oh man... if u were thinking of it, u could've told us. and here i was thinking no one bothers abt fyp so i have to take the initiative (which i really hate but im really forced to)
wad im even more scared is that no one wants to be the leader. and then i'll be stuck with being the leader.
i have totally zero leadership quality. i cant lead for shit. i dun wan the group to crumble apart because of me. im fine with myself suffering. i dun wanna pull the rest of the group down too.
not sure if i should look for a job now.... i've a feeling i wont be able to cope.
like wad i said, reality really slapped my face hard this time round.
i thought i'll only worry abt wad job to get after i come back from vietnam.
but hell no. everything just come all at a time.
oh well, wt did say she'll help out with fyp stuffs.
but really, how much can she help? she has her intern and stuff like that. i dun really wanna bother her. i know how mentally draining work can be.
oh well.... first fyp meeting next wed. shall see how things go.
i've a VERY bad feeling for this last sem.
i hope i can pull through this.
no idea why also. but everything has been annoying me since yesterday night after knowing one member left and the fact that i've somehow became the leader.
guess its time for me to chill now...
ciao

Out Of Bounds:D
1:26 pm

♥Sunday, September 16

alrighttttt.
im back in sg. and using my uncle's laptop now. because apparently, my laptop is still under servicing. SIGH.
i'll only get it back next week. BIG SIGH AGAIN.
ok, anyway shall talk abit abt the sch overseas trip to vietnam.
IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME LAH, OK.
made some new friends.
the food there was nice too (totally not wad i had expected) THE FOOD WAS AWESOME LAH SIA. i tried the porcupine meat. yes, its nice. ignoring the fact that i ate something that cute ><
and yah, every meal confirm there's something thats fried. EVERY meal, there prawn, fish, veggie and occasionally sotong. for fruits, its always watermelon, pineapple, pomelo.
but yah, i really have to admit that the food that the farmers ate WAS THE BEST! really. the porcupine meat was made by them. the beef curry was nice too. for hotel food, i think the best i've eaten so far was the beef stew. FREAKING NICE. and during lunch yesterday, the beef noodle IS TO DIE FOR, REALLY! i've nvr tried any beef noodle which is as nice as that, i swear.
all in all, i really didnt expected the food there to be that nice. seems like my point of view on the food there has totally changed.
the ppl there are very friendly too. epecially those living in the village.
the highlands (village), has VERY nice sceneries. will upload some of it soon enough.
and the dogs there i SO much cuter than those in sg, really.
all the stray dogs there are so cute that i go "OHMYGOD! SO CUTEEEEEEEE!" everytime i see a dog on the streets. i bet everyone was like "ohmygod. there she goes again" but yah, they're really very cute. once again, will post it up another time.
ummm.... wad else uh? hmmm.... yah! the coffee. its very nice. bought lots of coffee back too (was asked to do it) so, yah.... ;x
and the things there ARE SUPER DUPER CHEAP.
and im surprised my smile can actually help me so much in bargaining. (shall use it more) though there's not much use in sg... ;x
hmmm.....i guess this will be the summarized version of the whole vietnam trip :D
time to have lunch, then nap time! :D

Out Of Bounds:D
1:54 pm

♥Friday, September 7

ok, im up.
super early, as compared to other days this week.
ok, mainly because i had to wake up early today to submit the surveys later on.
so i need to wake up early to sort out the surveys.
ok, so up to this point.
i really need to pen down my thoughts if not, i'll really explode.
ok, so the door to door survey thing....
well, at first the money really attracted me. but when i really get down to do it, its really total shit.
well, its also thanks to this that i see all kinds of ppl.
first, there are the friendly and nice ppl (i love them) sometimes they'll even invite u into their house or offer u a drink. they're really nice. sometimes we'll talk abit (not survey-related) yeah, they're cool. some of them understands how difficult this job can be. once again, i'll like to emphasize how nice these ppl are.
so secondly, there's ppl who die die dun wanna open their door. i mean like, yah... i KNOW ur at home =.=" i hear ur tv. and i can see lights. i can even hear ur dog barking and after awhile the dog stops. OBVIOUSLY someone is doing something right? =.="
third, there are those who dun wanna do survey even though they're free. i mean, yeah... they're watching tv, but says they're busy/dun wanna do =.=" ITS JUST A SURVEY!!! why do they act as if im gonna eat them up?
fourth, ppl who are just... intolerable. they push the survey from one person to another. then when their daughter returns, its pushed to the daughter. and when i asked for her age, she's like "can i dun do this? im really tired" and close the door on me. hello, as if im not tired ah? =.=" im not sure whether ur day is as shittty as mine, but cant u show some respect. i wouldnt be that angry if u just tell me u dun wanna do the survey. but do u HAVE to add in the "im really tired" behind? =.="
and fifth, there's this house where they answer halfway and tell me they needa go slp =.=" HELLO, HALFWAY THERE ALREADY LEH! u get ntuc voucher after that also. =.=" but no, even ntuc voucher cannot tempt an aunty like u. u NEED to go "slp" even though i know very well ur watching tv =.="
that alone, my reaction already like... "wtheck?"
but after that, some ahpek comes out and tell me there's no time for recycling. that the mountains are melting. blahblahblah. didnt really bother listening. i just "orh" and nod my head from time to time.
AND THEN, I DUNNO WHY HE DECIDED TO TELL ME THAT WE ALL HAVE NO TIME FOR RECYCLING JUST BECAUSE HE HAS CANCER =.="
hello, uncle. there's a line that u can NVR cross u know.
i know u have cancer. i respect u. i know its hard.
BUT THENNNNN, u come to me and tell me we all have no time?! and ask me whether i know that it is very easy to get cancer even young ones. blahblahblah. then say maybe im still young. but in 2 years, i'll know.
HELLO UNCLE, I FREAKING STUDY CANCER! DO U EXPECT ME NOT TO KNOW HOW EASY IT IS TO GET CANCER?! =.="
i probably know more abt how cancer come abt than u and of course, the reason why its so easy to get cancer =.="
bad decision to lecture me on CANCERS =.="
i mean like.. yah, ok. before that, u tell me u just took ur cancer med and not in the right state of mind to take the survey. yah, im cool with that. so i surveyed someone else.
butbut, u need to tell me we all have "no time"? anot =.=" im not sure how ur ever gonna recover from ur cancer if ur so negative abt life =.=" there're treatments anyway. its not like there's no way to cure it =.=" if u wan, i can help u with the treatments also lah! i know the procedures anyway.
pfft, seriously....
lesson learnt: DO NOT lecture someone if u dunno the background of that person.
ur really lucky i didnt say anything to u. i was so deep in thought abt wad to do with the half-done survey that all i just did was just "yah, i know" *nod nod*
singaporeans.... really.... why u all so uptight? =.="
really, i've nvr seen ppl from other countries as uptight as singaporeans. (most of the time)

ok, now i feel so tired. but, it felt good; kinda.
done with sorting out my surveys also.
just need to go down to the office and face the music later ~.~ then i'll need to listen to their lecture on how little surveys i have gathered.
alright. time to chill before i bathe and go out. *yawn*
cant wait to get out of sg. get away from the ppl here.

Out Of Bounds:D
10:40 am

♥Tuesday, September 4

*yawn* today is the day where i FINALLY have to go door to door and survey ppl.
SIAN! but the money i get is.... $.$ WOOLALA~
ok, so.... things to do today: laze around somemore, start to pack my luggage, check some stuff and drag myself out @.@

AND THIS!
WTF DID I JUST SEE?!
I FREAKING SAW MY FACE INSIDE THAT LIST.
ok, now im really regretting that all the stuff that i chose only worth $90+ when combined together.
ohmygod! >< THATS $20+ WASTED!!!!
and i only chose 2 items, DO U BELIEVE THAT?! 2 items added up together, cost 90+.
ok lah, not bad.

SEEE!!!! I ONLY CHOSE THIS TWO ITEMS. OHMYGOODNESSSSS ><
oh well, at that time when i was choosing i was just choosing base on wad i think i need
ahhhhhh... well, at least i won something :|
thats a start, i guess ;x
yah, i really think im super lucky lah. besides the point that i dropped my cup yesterday and cut my feet cause i stepped on one small piece of glass ;x

*yawn* alright. breakfast time. and time to do all my stuffs before going out.

Out Of Bounds:D
10:22 am

♥Sunday, September 2

soooooo.... my last day of work at night fest ended yesterday.
really, mixed feelings lah.
at first, i dun really wanna do it and stuff like that cause its like so tiring and u have to approach ppl (like duh, surveyor need to approach ppl mah. if not ppl approach u meh?)
ok, approaching ppl was the first turn off for me at first.
but on the 2nd day (which is also the last day), im not sure why, but i got quite hyped lah. maybe because its the last day of the event and stuff like that. then i can really feel the atmosphere building up even though the event hasnt really started. (yah, dunno why i was so excited even though the event hasnt started)
ok, so there was this new guy yesterday called kenny. then before we even started work, we were talking lah. at that time, wt hasnt here yet. so yah, when sx (the in-charge) assigned us to our place, he's like.. "all three of u know each other ah?" and im like... "no, i only know her *pointing to wt*" and he's like.. "then why u and him talk as if u know each other like that?" LOL! ;x wads wrong with talking, anyway ;x
ok, so all three of us were assigned to SMU. was pretty fun. cause the day before, its only me and wt. so we target couples. she will survey one person. and i'll survey another one. but yesterday, we had three. so its very easy to target a group of at least 3 ppl.
then, the funny part. kenny went forward to a group of guys but got rejected straight. then wt is like.. "of course u get rejected lah. u guy wad. waiying, u go try!" and he's like "if the guy really do the survey, i really speechless. u go try lorh" ok, so i went... and got the guy to do the survey. LOL!
then after that, we were moved from SMU to SAM cause reached quota for SMU already. for the first half of the time we were there, we were walking around the museum, enjoying the aircon. and basically slacking. then after that sx came, so yah, we started to work lorh. and after awhile, he told us to slow down. k, so we slowly do. and after that, we gave him all the surveys and he's like "why u all do so many? dun do already. why u all so hardworking today? later they all ask me why last week so little then today so much" LOL! i dun even think i was working that hard lorh. most of the time, kenny was helping me even though i said it was ok ;x he even refused to write his name on the survey form lorh even though i kept asking him to write his name down.
ok, so sx asked us to stop. so, of course we did lah! and sat around, slacking (again) then at 2am, finally can go back~ :D
yah, so overall. this job wasnt that bad at all lah. its quite fun actually. u get to speak to alot of ppl. one person that i have a VERY deep impression is this 60+ woman from UK. she's a professor that has done her phd and travelling around. wad i totally LOVE abt her is her enthusiasm. even though she's 60+, she still has alot of energy and enthusiasm for events like this. seriously enjoyed talking to her. and even though she's alone, she's really enjoying herself. seeing her so happy, makes me very happy as well. i mean, wad greater joy is there other than seeing ppl feel happy? aw man.... thinking abt her, makes me wanna hug her for being so cute even at such an age.
seriously, i SWEAR! i seriously LOVE angmohs. especially if they're on the older side. they're so friendly and kind and so... happy abt life. maybe the environment that they grow up in is so much different. the stress level in sg is so high that practically no one is happy abt life.
>< and now, i miss working at gloria jeans again. cause i'll see angmohs everyday, sipping on coffee and just chilling. and sometimes, they'll just talk to u, all friendly and stuff. u dun really see much friendly singaporeans around. well, there are.. but u know... its VERY rare. even ppl from china, or philippines or even india. some of them are actually much more friendlier than most singaporeans, i swear. yah, singaporeans, its time to do something.
alright, shall stop my grandmother story here. time for anime! :D and yeah.... lunch >< at like... nearing 5? ><

Out Of Bounds:D
4:48 pm

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