hmmm.... reality's pretty harsh. managed to escape reality by going to vietnam. but coming back just.... sucks. reality literally hits my face. hard. VERY HARD this time round. just only yesterday, i found out one fyp member is going for intern. which means, there's only 4 members left. wq, melvin, me and some random person whom i dun even know who it is. well, i know wq can do work but always late. melvin... games all day. talks alot in front of faci and the random person.... I HOPE HE/SHE IS OF HELP TO THE TEAM. and me.... since no one took the initiative to bring up the topic of "FYP", i took the initiative to start. and i had to email the faci. so now, i've somehow became the leader. which is a VERY VERY bad thing. i mean, im just not cut out to be a leader in EVERY way. im only taking the initiative because no one is and i feel its the right thing to do since other groups have already started and i feel that we cant start when sch holidays end. by then, it'll be too late. AND IM REALLY SURPRISED NO ONE COME TO ME ASKING ABT FYP AT ALL. i mean... yah, i asked melvin yesterday if he's fine if we start fyp meeting next week and he's like "yah, i was thinking of fyp meeting even when im on holidays" oh man... if u were thinking of it, u could've told us. and here i was thinking no one bothers abt fyp so i have to take the initiative (which i really hate but im really forced to) wad im even more scared is that no one wants to be the leader. and then i'll be stuck with being the leader. i have totally zero leadership quality. i cant lead for shit. i dun wan the group to crumble apart because of me. im fine with myself suffering. i dun wanna pull the rest of the group down too. not sure if i should look for a job now.... i've a feeling i wont be able to cope. like wad i said, reality really slapped my face hard this time round. i thought i'll only worry abt wad job to get after i come back from vietnam. but hell no. everything just come all at a time. oh well, wt did say she'll help out with fyp stuffs. but really, how much can she help? she has her intern and stuff like that. i dun really wanna bother her. i know how mentally draining work can be. oh well.... first fyp meeting next wed. shall see how things go. i've a VERY bad feeling for this last sem. i hope i can pull through this. no idea why also. but everything has been annoying me since yesterday night after knowing one member left and the fact that i've somehow became the leader. guess its time for me to chill now... ciao
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thr isnt anything which i reali wan.
things i wan doesnt come easy or else it wouldnt be worthwhile in getting.
if it comes easy, it totally defeats the purpose.
i wan something tats hard to come by and rare.
unique, special and out-of-the-world.
im not a materialistic kinda person.
