sigh. its times like this where i start to think alot. "times" referring to when im at home, alone, in my room, with my pillows and bolsters and my overcrowded bed. i REALLY hate times like this. cause my mind tend to wander everywhere and think too much. like, how useless i am now. i keep spending money on very unnecessary stuffs even though im not working. i wasnt like this last time. even my mother was so proud of me. because last time when she ask me and my bro whether we wan certain things, i always say i dun wan even though i really wan it cause i know her money really doesnt come easy. my bro is just.... greedy. was greedy, is greedy, and always will be :| and, this applies to me even now. was always asked "u wan this? u wan that?" most of the time, i'll say "no" or "anything", if that thing is expensive. i mean, yeah. deep down i really wan it. but then, spending that much money on me isnt really necessary. i just think i dun really deserve that much of a luxury. i mean, who am i to even deserve all these anyway? i've nvr made any great achievements in my life :| just someone insignificant in this world. who's not smart or hardworking and procrastinates all the time. i cant do things right most of the time. im a super slow learner. i absorb things at a pace that is slower than a snail. im like the laziest person anyone can ever find. i dun even know wad i'll be doing after i graduate. really would like to thank everyone who was given so much to me. i really dun think i deserve so much. sigh. emotion-filled post. thats why, i hate being alone, at home, on my bed, with a wandering mind. need to stop this soon >< need to continue reading fyp stuffs and continue with my notes. well, of course after my head is cleared. sigh.
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thr isnt anything which i reali wan.
things i wan doesnt come easy or else it wouldnt be worthwhile in getting.
if it comes easy, it totally defeats the purpose.
i wan something tats hard to come by and rare.
unique, special and out-of-the-world.
im not a materialistic kinda person.
